Ain’t no muthafxckin joke. Seriously. In HS I breezed through AP and Honors classes, graduated with high honors, ranked 23 out of 600 something students, but now? I’m struggling my ass off… Working five days a week, plus two FULL days of classes can really wear a person down…
Not to mention I feel a bit depressed this past year of college. I told myself to take a quick break in extra-curriculars, and now I wanna kill myself. I have a passion for being involved and using my time and energy to benefit others. Not just for bragging rights or experience, but just to help the way I know how. For next semester I want to join a sorority or AMSA or something, but my grades aren’t looking the way I planned prolonging my membership in any of those… -____-
Yes, I know UNLV isn’t a great college, and it sure is not where I wanted to be, but it’s acceptable as of now. Damn right if my circumstances did not force me to enroll at UNLV I’d strictly be studying somewhere in California, but I’m stuck.
CSN was an option I was looking to take. Cheaper classes, easier professors, closer distance, why not right? UNLV just raised their tuition, more classes were cut, courses are difficult, and driving to and from is a bitch. With all of that being said, I’m still sticking with UNLV. I don’t want to hate on CSN, but I know I can do better. A wise teacher once told me never to attend CSN, and I WILL listen to her. It’s an extension of high school, and Legacy already messed up my learning. If I chose the easier way path, I just know I’m bound for some major consequences. Even though UNLV is hard, I know it will benefit me. I know people say “Oh I’m going to CSN for now, but I’m going to UNLV later.” Yeah, it’s cheaper, but depending on your major, those “transfer grades” will haunt you. If your career only requires you to have an associates, then I envy you. For those who plan on getting their bachelor’s? I feel sorry for you. UNLV will be a HUGE wake up call for you, and I’m glad I’m learning how to be a student there, now. UNLV is a university for a reason. I still consider CSN as a community college. Correct me if I’m wrong, but I think I chose the better path. Which would you rather choose?
My GPA isn’t where I want it to be. I failed a class, audited another, and I look down on myself for doing so. I know I can do better, and next semester I will. My heart will always and forever be set on becoming an MD, but as of now I know I didn’t strive hard enough to make that possible. I’m currently working on graduating under the Fast Track Program to TUCOM for Osteopathic Medicine. If I do so I cut the med school from 8 years to seven, it’s in Las Vegas so leaving my mom won’t be an option, and if I work harder, it’s more than possible to achieve.
My Freshman year of college wasn’t great. I didn’t do much, I didn’t earn much. What I did learn though is what I need to work on, and what I want. I’ve made a decision, and I’m proud of myself for doing so.
Dear Freshman year of college,
Fuck you, but thank you. I’ve learned alot…
Love,
NSHE #2000120978.
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