So ouch. I just had to get this off of my chest. As much as I shouldn’t care and as much as I shouldn’t let it bother me, it does. Regardless of the time of occurrence, the status of our relationship, and the state of the matter, it hurt. Yeah I’ve hurt you plenty of times, but I feel this one impacted me the most. Like you said, yeah it was my fault for putting you on a pedestal, but you gave me a reason to. Who says they’d wanna be with ONE person they’re whole entire life and claim that that person could’ve been me, who claims and brags of they’re high standards and SECURE you compared to other people. That’s what I liked about you the MOST. Yeah you can say alcohol may have affected the situation, but who always tells me “people know what they’re doing when they’re drunk.” No matter what recovery statements you throw at me, the fact that you did that, especially with that type of girl, disgusts me. It hurts knowing you hid this from me this whole time, it hurts I went on for so long thinking you were someone you weren’t. I know this doesn’t justify my actions like you said, but it does justify the choice I chose. It sucks that no matter how hard I try it keeps replaying in my head how the situation happened. It’s pretty pathetic that you’d stoop that low to a girl nearly EVERYONE’S been with. Maybe cause you were hurt and she was an EASY target? I don’t know. Just know though I do forgive you, but I will never forget what you said. Thanks for letting me know I guess, but I would’ve been happier not knowing that. Thought you were SO much better than that, you can do SO much better than her. Tall ass slut ass hoe! She should get checked, ha.
Sorry just letting my feelings talk right now.
